It was our decision not to move forward and we had some genuine, big reasons for not pursuing it further. Still, it stings.
It stings because we met and bonded with these children. It stings because we dared to hope that our journey toward parenthood was coming to an end.
To quote John Green, "It hurts because it mattered".
One positive thing to come out of this mess is that we received our official state approval earlier than expected. We are officially "paper pregnant" as of February 10, 2016.
That term feels so weird. I'm not sure I like it, but it seems fitting and others around us have sort of latched onto the saying.
Meh. Whatever makes them happy, I guess.
As disappointed and saddened as we are, we are still moving forward and open to any new matches that might come our way. Our caseworker is awesome (as is our agency) and this team behind us is working with us toward finding our family.
This process has shown me time and time again that God's timing is perfect.
I'm trusting him with this completely.