I've been keeping some things in the down low for a while and I think it's finally time to fess up.
Steve and I have been trying to have a baby for about 2 years with no success. We had a very early miscarriage around Memorial Day this year (Steve's birthday weekend, actually) and not even the hope of a positive result since then. We are infertile. It is a circumstance I have been afraid of experiencing my entire life (I once claimed it to be my biggest fear) and here we are living it.
I'm choosing to be honest about this now because some exciting things have happened/are about to happen for us. No, we have not "beaten the odds" and gotten pregnant. Nor have we gone through a successful fertility treatment of some kind.
Actually, we have taken the first steps toward adoption from foster care!
Steve and I have made the decision, after almost a full year of specific prayer and reflection (and maybe a little incredulous questioning from time to time), to look for our children in the US foster system. We are open to a variety of circumstances, but are hoping for a school-aged child or group of siblings.
We are going through an agency since we have never done this before and wanted the help and support an agency can provide. We just sent in our preliminary application and are registered for our orientation session on January 8th. After that we can register for IMPACT classes and complete a home study.
This is the first step in a very long journey, one in which both Steve and I will need a lot of support. I'm not making any promises about posting, but my hope is to share our journey here in this blog as much as possible.